Tomorrow I’ll be on speed-dating with other movie making people. I’ll stuff my pockets with business cards, put on my screenwriter’s public face and tell myself I enjoy mingling.
Mentally I would prefer to stay at home. Practically, I need to show myself and meet with people that make movies; especially when screenwriting is such neglected area in Sweden.
I have a box of two hundred and fifty business cards with my company’s name and the bold line “Movie scripts as you want them”. Not only do I mean it – cocksure as it may be – but it is also a little bit of humour in it: how many products and services have not been sold under this slogan? But never movie scripts, as far as I know.
I’m pretty tired of being humble about my writing. Do you get a job by saying words as “a little” and “maybe” and “some”? No. And I have confidence in my writing. Why then is it so easy to say “I’m pretty sure that I can write you a script” instead of “I’m sure I can write you a script”?
I am sure I can write you a script. Any script.
Yes, I suppose that attitude may cause irritation. But if you were about to invest money, would you prefer someone with confidence or someone with a lot of “maybe” and “some”? What I care about is whether or not my writing is to satisfaction, not if I’m liked as a person.
This does not mean that I cannot take criticism and feedback. In this area, I’m very humble. As a person, I think I am easy to work with. Just tell me what you like and don’t like and what you want and I rewrite it.
Still, I’m not much for saying this in public. Writing is one thing. As well as I have confidence in my writing, I have the confidence to write that I have confidence. That confidence tends to fly away like a balloon when I meet people face to face. I have to hold the string to the balloon tight and not begin babbling like a buffoon – in the worst case with a high-pitched voice.
With a little luck, the lasting impression of me is my persuading and glossy business card.