- To sell a feature script of mine.
- To make a living of my writing. Should be possible if I sell a feature a year. But on the other hand – what happens if I don’t manage that one year? Ohh, that’s scary.
- To get an assignment to write a script for a James Bond movie
- To write and sell an adaption of “Prince of Foxes” by Samuel Shellabarger. This is a book I read as a young teenager and have loved ever since. I made a script of it once just for practice many years ago and it had potential to become something stunning.
Now, look at the list, and then consider the need not to live for some future goal, because “it is the sides of the mountain that sustain life, not the top” as Robert Pirsig expressed himself. I hope I will be able to carpe diem anyway. It feels like balancing on an edge. It is okay to have goals and dreams, but you should still live in a way that you enjoy every day. The two philosophies kind of crashes into each other, don’t you think? If I enjoy every day in full, does this not mean that I am content and do not long for something else? If I work hard to reach a goal, does this not mean that I miss catching the joy of every day? I could go insane to plan for how I will enjoy my 70th birthday the most and have as few regrets as possible. Because that is what all these philosophies end up to, isn’t it? You don’t want to look back on your life and wonder what happened.
Image by Désirée Nordlund.